I need a break from everything

I need something huge that can clear all my thoughts

I need something to wash all the problems away

I need money

I need time

But after all I realized

One thing I thought I’d never need

One thing I have always craved the most

One thing I buried so deep, it sleeps beneath awareness

One thing that could light the way to all the rest

It’s love.

It presses on me harder than I can endure

It overwhelms me beyond my reach

It feels as if I don’t know what love is.

Now I fall into the old self with chaos glowing faint in the ashes.